On ambitions

Am ''menyahuting cabaran'' Lam and Nick to write about ambitions and growing up. Most of you guys know me as the fun and frisky Lioness but a woman's heart is like a deep ocean.


I know usually this blog is a fun cock talking blog which I love esp when Ra-Jen & Lam do Manta updates. So whilst still maintaining some mystery to my life am going release some.... ala bed times stories.


So ambitions for me while growing up looking back feels like one big lie. I feel life has cheated me simply because remember those 001 Brown cards that the teacher fills up every year from Std 1 - 7 yrs till Form 5 - 17yrs old) asking your 3 choice what do you want to be when you grow up.

Let just say no one puts HR in it ! No one says ''When I grow up I'm going to be a HR person!!!''


How I ended up doing HR is another story.


But my point is whenever I used to say what I really wanted to be I used to get strange looks not only by the teachers but also by people when posed the question.


Because it was a man worlds. Because Malaysia didn't have the facility for females also then you have the whole racial quota and since I come under ''others'', I have the least quota. Then at that time when I finished my O'Levels females in this industry in Malaysia or any South East Asian country didn't exist. But it does now. Sad right ! Then of course there was the whole scholarship, loan thing. Did I qualify............ No...............


But the fact is this whole school what you wanna be when you grow up thing is a good way for kids to grow up and realise that its a whole lie due to factors like colour, quota etc etc. unless you have ALOT of money.


So I ended being a HR person its not what I want to be but I/we usually don't get what we want out of life but we can try very hard to make the best out of it. As for my unachieved dream, I still have hopes and dreams to do it as a hobby when I strike the National Lotto.


Oh btw very touching incident. I rang Ra-Jen few days back he said I must come for Eugene's wedding. I said I cant come back twice a year he said ill sponsor your ticket. HEH WHAT A TOP CLASS FRIEND !!!!!!!!!! but me being me.............. I cant do that. Half- half maybe can HEHEHEH.